Friday, March 28, 2008
in conjunction with "AngelicBetrayal", i shall post something related to her latest blog post :D
dedicated to mostly those who suffered under the wraths of "weewoo birdy" and of course the accused him/herself
sorry to say, but i usually work with a mindset of "guilty till proven innocent" and not the other way round.
go here for the site where i got the song
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Music Codes
到底是哪個混蛋敢欺負我的朋友！？
词／曲／演唱：謝和弦
啥啥都別說 啥啥都別做
快快靠進我 抱一抱我
大大的美夢 大大的失落
打倒你的開朗 讓你意志薄弱
煩惱堆太多 心事積太重
你看看你的臭臉 媲美臭水溝
悶甚麼 在龜什摸 反正今天我就是要陪在你的左右
到底是哪個混蛋敢欺負我的朋友！？
他不要被我遇到 我一定不會讓他好過！ (*editor's note: we've met countless times..)
我怎麼能夠讓你每天垂頭喪氣憂愁！？
你快給我一個笑容！
＊舉起你的手 讓我給你加油 (we wont let you down)
你要加九二 九五 我這裡都提供
抬起你的頭 仰望著天空 試著搜尋感動
拭去你的淚 讓我捏捏你的臉
＊舉起你的手 讓我給你加油 (we wont let you down)
你要加九二 九五 我這裡都提供
雖然油價都 漲的沒公道 還是供不應求
只要請你記住 我當你是朋友
we wont let you down
note!: im using musicuploader because blogger somehow refuses to accept what i uploaded onto fileden and it refuses to let me use the normal music player i use. i know it's extremely irritating because it loads very slowly and the music stops every 2 seconds. i will try to think of an alternative. meanwhile i suggest u let it play once with all the stops in between, but u can ignore it and just go do your other stuff. after it finishes, then u listen again bah :P
be thankful im posting a song whereby you are not the subject here, i have even ruder songs which are completely filled with vulgarities. however i deemed it inappropriate for my innocent image (*gives innocent look*).
we shall see...
to my friends: pls rmb the chorus part ^^
on a final note:
支持謝和弦!!!!! (oops! sry, i got too carried away, put too many exclamation marks :P)
saw in the darkness 9:19 PM
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Monday, March 24, 2008
my life is boring, very boring.
it's like a routine, everyday wake up, go school, go home, study, sleep , wake up, go school, and it goes on and on and on and on.
i just ask for an exciting life but it seems so far, so impossible.
it's never like the characters in the storybooks, neither is it like the characters in a drama.
haiz.. im so bored, so bored, why isn't anything exciting happening to me? where have all the exciting stuff gone to?
i want some and i need some excitement in my life!
往往我们都会停到别人说：
"每一天都是一个新的一天，我们应该拥抱这充满希望，精彩的一天"
bullshit!
新的一天? 每天都一样，何来新？
充满希望，精彩？ the answer is obvious.
haiz, typed so long,wasted so much time and there's totally no purpose in this post, afterall i don't want to do my hw and i escape to here.
dear readers: please pardon all the junk and crap and bullshit that i just typed, goodbye and have a nice day
ps. 难道一个精彩的人生就如此遥不可及吗？
saw in the darkness 9:10 PM
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
recently so many has happened and it has led me into thinking that...
the society has caused humans to evolve at a very fast rate
facing competition, pressure, and your own personal gains,
it has become a dog eat dog world where only the strongest will survive, if you're lousy, you're out of the game, there is no compassion, no sympathy or whatsoever.
humans have been so self-centered and they no longer care for their peers, sometimes i can't help but wonder if i will become like that one day, afterall we cannot afford to lose in this world, we cannot afford to let our guards down, we cannot afford to do so many things, we are no longer what we are and we have to put on a mask and gradually, we ourselves do not know how to remove the mask. it is sad this is happening in our society, and it is sadder to find that it can be happening right in our school itself.
the school is very practical,
if you're not good you're gone
if you're cca is not good, it's gone
e.g a cca which is unable to win awards and medals for the school has a gigantic risk of turning into a second cca
this makes all the power struggle we see in dramas so real, it seems as though the drama was a direct portrayal of reality.
i really fear that friends will turn into enemy due to conflict of interest
i hope that day never comes
ps. why are lousy teachers still kept in school? that, i have no answer to.
saw in the darkness 12:10 AM
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Friday, March 21, 2008
after so so so so so so so so many emo posts, i shall finally say
today is fantastic + fabulous
squadmates celebrated my birthday for me in advance
and i must say
it's indeed heartwarming for them to do that although i have never enjoyed cca
i received so many nice nice prezzies (fine, just two, but it's enough)
the bear so cute (post pics another time) and the cake so yummy.. ^^
it's been a long time since i have played so crazily, in the sense that we played all that we wanted to play. it has definitely been a good break (although it's only very very short de half day), better than the march hols.
but as i blog now, i am starting to worry about my hw, i have not touched it at all and i'll be out the whole day tmr. and all the hw are all those super-difficult-to-do-and-need-alot-of-time-to-do kind. i guess i'll end up being emo again when sunday comes and i'll be whining about the massive amounts of hw. and currently i'm thinking about how to squeeze out some time to do some hw tmr to ease my workload..
haiz...
a supposedly not emo post ended up being emo again..
nonetheless i shall say..
squadmates rawks
classmates rawks too
friends rawk equally as well
but...
i cannot say the same for cca..
my deepest apologies
i just can't feel the same for cca
ah.. i forgot
my grandparents rawk too
even though they do not celebrate my birthday with me, somehow, somehow i feel their well wishes
saw in the darkness 10:50 PM
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
世界末日－周杰伦
作词：周杰伦 作曲：周杰伦
想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头 承认自己会怕黑
我只求 能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界 好像只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰 会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑 梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违
累不累 睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑 梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美
disclaimer! : I am NOT suicidal. repeat: NOT
saw in the darkness 7:08 PM
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
school is getting too stressful for me, i really cant cope. now i understand why people commit suicide due to stress, i wish i could too, but i do not have that courage in me to do so. good or bad? i do not know.
i tried working hard but it's useless, i worked hard for the tests but nothing comes out of it. what else can i do?
everything is just so wrong. it's already been 3 months into the year but things are still not going right. tests, exams, ccas. all these are forcing me into a corner, i hardly have enough breathing space. parents are pressurising me, teachers are pressurising me, it seems that the only ones who understand us is our own peers, afterall they're going through the same thing as us, but that does ot help in me coping better at all. things are getting from bad to worse. the first test wasn't exactly great and my results are going down down down. i'm not trying to aim for the stars, i just hope they stop going down. im trying harder and harder, i put in more and more effort but it seems that the effort never corresponds with the results. even though im trying harder, results are still going down. whats the point? it makes everything feel so insignificant.
i have no more drive left in me. im drained of all my emotions (from doing all the article reviews) and energy. the only thing left in me is blood, the dreadful blood which is keeping me alive and kicking. how i wish im drain of all my blood too. i have lost my passion to work hard, i have lost my passion to study (it existed, believe it or not). what else can i do, i really don't know.
一失足成千古恨, i really comprehend this now, i should never have entered this school, i really hate myself now. really.
i want to shed this mask of pretence, but can i?
my life is so off track, i cannot even see the right path
Your Life is 90% Off Track
Okay, so you probably are living the wrong life. But the good news is, you know it.
You ultimately control how good or bad your life is - and it's time to get to work.
Get therapy, dump your significant other, or move across the country. It's time to shake things up.
saw in the darkness 9:39 PM
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
its raining again
its been raining for the past few days
i hope the rain never stops
i hope i drown in the rain
i hope my worksheets are lost in the rain
haiz..
this supposedly one week of rest has been so so so so stressful for me. even more stressful then a normal school day. i have done hw for almost the whole day, at the end of the day it feels as though nothing has been done. NOTHING! and in the previous post i said i had 15 pieces of work, that is a very very simplified version, if u really count all it can go up to more than 20! surprisingly!
i dun even dare dream about the june holidays. i hope it never comes. this march hols has left a scar in me. how?! how?! someone tell me how?! how to complete this scarily huge truckload of hw in just 7 days. its already wednesday and i have like 18-19 left with ALL reading assignments UNTOUCHED.
oh god! save me!
reading assignments, it's a ridiculous piece of work! when u read u read, why the hell do we have to analyse compare and give opinions on the articles. no wonder ppl hate reading.
oh damn, im really very very very stressed now. i'm having a headache. cca is a complete waste of time in such a period when time is your most valued "item".
.i agree COMPLETELY:
.happy holidays is an oxymoron!
saw in the darkness 8:27 PM
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Hated Holidays!
i hate holidays!
not because i can't meet my friends
not because i can't go to school
but because..
of the massive amount of homework
i'd rather there was no holidays
teachers keep telling us to rest well and have fun during the holidays and they keep giving us tons and tons of homework, contradicting themselves the very next minute
how to enjoy?!?
please enlighten me..
i hate holidays!
afterall we still end up going back to school during holidays. on top of that we get 10x more workload!
holidays are not happy, they are hated!
prove:
(my homework for this ONE week holiday)
1)chem reading assignment
2)physics reading assignment
3)geog reading assignment
4)maths ace-learning
5)bio reading assignment
6)EL short story
7)青年文摘
8)成功例子
9)bio assignment 3
10)physics assignment 3
11)physics acceleration notes
12)CID research
13)EL corrections
14)maths ws 10
15)physics 2006 test paper
15 pieces of work in 7 days. where's the time to rest and relax? u tell me.
i hate holidays, please spare me. holidays ain't fun.
holidays =/= fun/relax/enjoy
holidays = 10x workload
only retards will think ppl can rest and hv fun during holidays
saw in the darkness 3:14 PM
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Thursday, March 6, 2008
current mood: super emo
anyways i found this wonderful pic online
(the text says "in with a bullet out with hearts")
u break your promises not once not twice but many many times. im so tired of hearing your promises, your promises which are never kept, they no longer hold a value to you. your promises hold the same standing to a normal passing remark, how sad can that be. what else can i do? i feel so helpless, no one to turn to, no one to talk to, what else can i do besides crying in the rain. thnx for the wonderful rain these few days so no one see my tears, so that no one see the fragile me behind everything else..
(even though the meaning is not really same but at least it somewhat describes my feeling)
crying in the rain - 5566
I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All the sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain
If I wait for cloudy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you
So though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain
Raindrops falling from heaven
Will never wash away my misery
But since we're not together
I'll wait for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you'll never see
Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But till then, darling, you'll never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain
saw in the darkness 10:05 PM
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