Tuesday, November 27, 2007
haiz.. hv been abit busy these few days.. trying to catch up on dramas and such
just when i thought i would not have to go online and watch green forest coz channel u is goin to show it and it so luckily happens to be ep 1... my tuition teacher had to tell me tuition starts this wk wth!!! this added to the reluctance i always had whenever i went for lessons.. it sux!
why can't i decide for myself whether or not i want to go for tuition lessons.. i told my mum i dun wanna go but she said "that's goin to cost u ur As".
i can't rly accept this.. there are only 2 reasons i can tink for ur reply
1)you don't trust me
2)you tink im lousy
do you know u juz shattered the little amt of trust we had left between us.. bit by bit u threw out trust away.. now.. even the final lil bit is gone..
i know u will say for my own gd and i know in ur eyes it rly is for my own gd..
but im rly 14 and turning 15.. i know wats best for myself.. afterall its my life.. besides its english...
im nt trying to say my english is perfect.. its juz that whenever i go there.. its juz doin practices and learning things that will nt come out in exams.. you also say that only way is to read more bks.. then why force me to go for lessons.. i dun understand.. wat are adults thinking..
i believe im very clear headed now.. im nt saying all these coz i wanna watch green forest.. im nt that retarded.. i can make my own decisions..
why can't u juz trust me for once.. juz once and let me prove it to u..
how i wish dreams and realities cld swap places..
saw in the darkness 11:21 PM
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Monday, November 19, 2007
9.58pm
i feel sick..
my head is spinning.. i am seeing stars..
my nose is like a running tap.. water coming out non-stop.. juz that the tap can never be turned off
i feel so sick sick sick
i am seeing white blurry patches.. argh.. sry thats juz my dirty specs..
i dun even know wat i'm seeing..
i am so sick..
i juz wanna slp.....
pls juz let me sleep peacefully...
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11.11pm
its already so late (considering im sick) and im not asleep yet..
juz finished bathing..
i dun even know wat the hell my hand juz did..
i juz tasted shampoo and i tink some shampoo got into my eyes too..
i dun even know how i got the shampoo in my eyes and mouth..
unless....
you're trying to tell me the stinging sensation in my eyes and bitter shampoo in my mouth is all juz part of my imagination.. if thats the case i must be rly rly sick to be imagaing things..
i must rly get to sleep...
i juz wanna slp...
saw in the darkness 10:02 PM
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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
NEW
today got one newcomer come.. already see her bu shuang le :P
coz i go lunch that time then she juz come mah (i tink she afternoon shift) then now she take my place le, i no place right.. then they ask me go inside.. then cannot stay outside cannot see those lame lame funny funny customers somemore go inside le hv to take phone calls.. grr.. but then nvm lar.. coz today call de ppl got abit funny de also.. but today alot speak malay wors..
i tell u one of the abit lame and funny convo
so it was like i doing phone booking mah then i ask for his passport number but he speak so soft like that then cannot hear properly mah.. so example
"my passport number is S1234567A"
" S1234967A ?"
"nono.. S1324.. eh.. nono.. u are making me confused.. S1234567A"
after that i was like... -.-" ur own passport number also 搞不清楚 how can blame me...
then i typing lists that time got come across a few very weird names also
1)Robin Hood (can u believe it.. i thot only in fairytale then got this name de wors)
2) Byron Jeremy Peter ****(**** is the surname.. his name reminds me of mr bryan tan... somemore his one name can 分 to 3ppl to use lehs...)
haiz.. life is starting to get interesting and i hope it stays this way.. hope i dun hv to do matching.. they say its damn boring.. do le can slp de (literally... coz those 2 doing matching always sleep de.. i wan complain liaoz :P)
now i tink im quite sure if i 16/11 goin sch anot.. (those who know me shld now.. if u dunno then too bad lors.. can't expect me to put here and announce to whole world right..) <---clue..
hehes.. i feel abit lame lehs.. haiz...
saw in the darkness 8:28 PM
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Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Life....
went to work today after that AMC thing..
today was better than ytd.. less boring or maybe coz i better mood so i find it less boring coz i do the stuff same de lehs..
anyway got some unexpected events lar.. one is like damn lame lor...
this ang moh came and showed the boarding pass to one of the staff then he said something like "i dun wan to go" or sth lyk that so they thot he was trying to say he wants to cancel his trip lar.. however the card is other company de (wavemaster) so our staff went like "sir, this is not our company it is wavemaster, the next counter sir" then this thing repeat like 2-3 times.. in the end i THINK the ang moh was trying to like say he want take wavemaster de ferry dun wan take our ferry then i was like "wth.. take then take lar.. still come here and show for wat.. -.-lll "
there is also another case abit funny.. but then u all may not find it funny lar coz is the person say until very funny
there is this ang moh who came to pay but he paid short of 1 dollar (coz tax juz increased so price increase also lor)so it was like
staff: sir, the tax increased now is $11 instead of $10
angmoh: increased? why!
then he got say until very high pitch, bbc accent then very got tune that kind (super opposite of monotone), really is very got tune de.. more tune then out speech and drama teacher lors.. u juz try imagine he rly say until very funny...
ok thats about all.. dun tink my life is interesting juz lyk tt, it is actually very boring also.. everyday type type type.. then got abit typo error the customer will complain complain complain.. wth lar.. i type whole day a few typo error also cannot meh.. haiz.. i juz wan my pay.. haiz... haiz... haiz.. i miss pangya and my dramas (should be going to 绿光森林 as soon as i hv time to watch :) william's english damn cool can.. u also shld listen to his english.. i obssessed with his english le)
saw in the darkness 11:02 PM
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Sunday, November 11, 2007
went to east coast today with some other ppl lar.. then we thot we were the latest then in the end turn up we nt the latest got ppl later than us.. yayness! :P when everyone reach eunos we were like laggin abit dunno go whr lyk that..
finally reach east coast that time the things we do abit normal lar.. no special stuff.. we juz ate and rode the bikes lor..
i hvn't rode for so long le but still nt bad lar :P hehes.. feel so shiok lor with the wind blowing against the face.. too long nv ride le.. very long hvn'f feel lyk that le.. then xuqin fell.. alot injury.. hope she's fine le.. and nth special le leh..
haiz.. feel so tired when goin home then i also dunno they take bus until go whr coz i take until bedok more shun lu.. they dunno take wat go whr also.. sianz.. miss around 20mins of the show when i got home.. :P i miss pangya.. already lyk 2days hvn't play le.. tmr also no time play.. i tink.. tmr goin out.. haiz.. juz when i'm turning senior i can't play it.. wat luck.. haiz.. and still hv to go for the cheapskate child labour work on monday.. haiz.. now i having second thots about pon-ing cca le :P but still 80% will miss cca bah.. :P haiz.. dunno why i suddenly feel lyk emo-ing lehs.. how ar.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz...
saw in the darkness 12:17 AM
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Friday, November 9, 2007
FIRSTS!
i went harbourfront to work today.. haiz..
early morning 9am hv to reach there then work all they way until 6pm nt rly boring lar actually.. at least less boring then staying at home and get fed up after i keep missing all my pangyas after playing pangya for ard 3hrs and go staring at the google main page coz i dunno whr to go..
the staff there are very friendly and helpful.. heehees.. wait.. i missed out those higher ups ( u know those who draw a high high salary). i seriously suspect e*** is nt a gd name (the one frm my cca and the other one i forgot hu but rmb there's another guy also e*** then sort of rmb i dun rly liked him..) ok.. point is there's this sales manager who's called e*** lim and his got the kind of bu shuang face all day round (u know the kind of face ppl see le wan box de) then jiu dun rly like him lar.. HOWEVER, his son is also working same area as me lar.. then his son quite friendly de lorhs.. (ok.. nt rly friendly but helpful bahs)(*disclaimer* not shuai ok)(there's another guy supposed to be working same area as me also de but nt here today coz got sch.. *starts wondering if he's shuai anot* *saliva starts dripping* heehees..) besides, the rest of the staff is nice! there's this sister ayu and sister masmas, i dunno anything usually is ask them de coz the other guy who supposed to teach us more busy mah.. then there is also the counter manager who is friendly and nice also, abit lame also.. (coz when those ppl going on tour de come and claim their boarding pass then alot tour mah then he say.."wah.. fight liao like in da chang jin (coz they korean) " =.=" (they nt even quarreling juz raising their voice so they can get attended to firs...)( now then i realise maybe u all dunno wat i talknig about coz i hvnt tell u wat i working as.. ok tell u now) haiz.. why both also manager ( counter manager and sales manager) but one so nice one so not nice..
ok.. working in batamfast (so peeps nxt time u all going batam or skupung(dunno how to spell) or waterfront or where ever else must go batamfast ok dun go penguin.. :P) ok.. so when i firs reach there they ask me to check the ticket number juz make sure it tally and stuff like that lorhs.. abit sian lar but easy mah..
next comes the scary stuff.. i was supposed to like answer phone calls and do the phone booking thing (the scary part is not on the booking its on picking up the phone!)..
scenario 1:the ppl call and why the hell do they hv so many qns to ask juz book can le lar.. then i rly dunno how to ans their qns de lor so i pass the phone over to sister ayu :P
scenario 2:the ppl call and they're speaking in malay! (and i wld be lyk huh?!?! o.0 damn! shld hv payed attention in the malay conversationaly classes :P) and once again i'll pass the phone over to sister ayu :P
conclusion : out of 10 calls about 6-7 end up with sister ayu :P
next is the better part.. no more phone calls and nt too boring also.. but also got its bad points.. i was supposed to print boarding passes according to a list lar.. so hv to key is their passport number then name and stuff like that.. and i can't understand wat the hell are they writing coz the list is faxed over de mah.. the worst is the korean de.. the 7 looks lyk an N, the 8 looks like a 3, the J looks like a V.. the V looks like a ??(i dunno wat it looks like coz hvn't seen one b4 or maybe all along its a V not a J oops!) that's about it le.. can u imagine doing these stuffs for a whole day sitting on a STOOL!!! argh.. my back is aching like hell.. i luv my chair back home!! :D
hey ppl.. wait till i get my firs pay check im gonna splurge like hell!! heehees...
[*edit* i decided to censor the names in case some e*** come and start saying stuff like i discriminating and start flaming me ... zzz ](if u want to know the name go ask ppl who read it b4 i edited.. hehes)
saw in the darkness 9:30 PM
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Wednesday, November 7, 2007
APOLOGIES!
i was supposed to meet lx for lunch today then we go cip today de.. her remedial was supposed to end at 12 so i was prepared to leave home around 11.50-12 so can't blame me for playing before that time right.. ok.. so i was playing pangya at around 11.30 still playing lar.. then hole 2 only then she suddenly sms me she released le! now how.. i can't juz leave the game halfway thru like that.. (i know in maple u can leave any time u can.. but nt pangya..) sp pf course i continued playing.. until the game ended then i rushed to commonwealth lor.. then she said(who knows if its true :P ) she waited one hour.. sry hors.. not purposely de.. also nt entirely my fault mah.. sry ar..
after lunch we went cip lor.. then was supposed to start at 2 budden we reach that time like nobody then after that we also keep lagging.. lag until like around 3.15 then start work(cutting the stuff) then so was rather slack lar..
after that they went collect class tee.. i rly can't go mah coz late le then hv to 交待 to parents de mah.. so can't go with them but they keep dragging me.. sry lar.. rly can't go.. sry sry.. nxt time bah.. nxt time u inform me beforehand i sure go ok.. cherie dear :D nxt time will go with u all de ( i say nxt time don't mean u all hv to leave my tee there ok.. ._. well, they threatened to leave my tee there coz i said nxt time go with them ._.) sry peeps.. nxt time rly will go de :D so today was rather slack lar.. actually din want to go out today de.. but then lx dun hv enough money help me pay.. so hv to go there to pay.. (that's nt rly the point lar.. the point is.. today still nt that bad lar.. quite enjoyable in a sense :D)
saw in the darkness 7:13 PM
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007
DRAINED
i feel so tired.. so sick..
im sick of having to go for cca..
im sick of having to look for excuses
im sick of staying home all day long feigning illness
im sick of all the things happening ard me
everything is so wrong so wrong
im drained of all my energy, not one drop is left in my body
i hv no more energy to fight u..
pls juz let me live my own life..
pls.. no more cca.. i feel so drained.. so drained..
i am so tired so tired..
why can't things be as simple as in other sch
ppl dun go cca nth happen.. why must u squeeze out an excuse letter frm me even after weeks.. pls dont come after me anymore.. i hv no more energy left to fight u off.. pls leave me alone..
saw in the darkness 6:06 PM
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Monday, November 5, 2007
What Your Handwriting Says About You 
You are a laid back person with rather low energy. You aren't lazy... you *are* sensitive and empathetic.
You are reserved and not very outgoing. You are deeply thoughtful and introspective. You have a lot of control over your actions and emotions.
You are very detail oriented and meticulous. You are a careful thinker and a true intellectual.
You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.
You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.
You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.
how true can this get! now.. let me explain..
rather low energy : see me know liao lar.. if high energy wun fail napfa liao right.. use ur brain also know lar
reserved and not very outgoing : actually i trying to be more sociable liao lar.. giv me some time can..
true intellectual : this one need explain meh.. i of course clever lar..
small amount of privacy: who dun nd privacy.. c'mon lar..
leave things a bit ambiguous: some things dun nd say until too clear lar.. let others imagine abit.. nt gd meh..
argh.. sry la peeps.. this was initially meant to be a happy post.. but i'm so vexed now.. happy bu qi lai.. and coz i vexed so i sound abit bu nai fan and angry.. sry hors.. haiz.. so many troubles recently.. argh.. i'm goin crazy!!!
saw in the darkness 10:39 PM
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Sunday, November 4, 2007
You Are a Zombie 
You're a pretty apathetic person, and you often feel like you're sleep walking through life.
You don't necessarily have a case of the "blues", but you do have a case of the "blahs."
It's hard for you to snap out of your boring every day routine. You're a bit burned out.
The only thing you crave is the company of others. But you're not too nice to the people who do hang around you.
Your greatest power: Your lack of a normal conscience
Your greatest weakness: Your lack of most emotions
You play well with: Aliens
i am a zombie.. but can i help it.. goin for retarded cca activities.. not being able to complain.. being deprived of all rights.. how can i not be a zombie.. i guess i hav zombie-fied juz like austen? how i wish im not.. but it doesn't look like i can help it.. is this wat cca has turned me into???
saw in the darkness 8:43 PM
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Thursday, November 1, 2007
REGRETS
i should never have gone for cca today.. i regret.. i regret but what else can i do.. it was ridiculous.. their attitude.. their actions.. i was hoping it wouldn't be that bad.. i wanted to give them the kind of drill they wanted.. after a while i gave up.. wat good would it do.. they juz scolded and scolded as though they would never be wrong.. they were wrong.. very wrong.. they thought they were right and scolded us.. when they realised it all they gave was "sorry".. i can't accept this! how about i pon cca and i tell u sorry.. how about i stab u and i tell u sorry.. sorry doesn't help at all.. it doesn't work this way at all.. nxt time get ur facts right before u start scolding!
besides, what the bloody hell is wrong with her today.. keep shouting and screaming.. purposely ask others to say command and since we're not suppose to execute why get them to say it.. (it's quite hard for me to believe she did not instigate them into it) i dun understand. what the hell is wrong with u.. do u rly enjoy scolding so much or are u juz venting ur anger on us after u hav failed all ur exams.. you are ridiculous..
even though it was recreation after that.. that will nt be enough for the wrong u hv done us..(besides, i dun tink she is making amendments at all). i tried to do my best but u dismissed it with all ur scoldings.. do not blame me for not trying the nxt time round.. i hav had enough
*off topic* recreation was juz as ridiculous.. who plays captain ball when the ball is juz PASSED around.. =.="
i see no point in continuing.. it would make me look just as ridiculous..
PEACE...
p.s. i'm sry but i dun think i'm interested in the nxt act.. i hav had enough of u.. please get out of my life!!!
saw in the darkness 7:08 PM
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