Tuesday, December 7, 2010

being in this attachment has been rather thought provoking (not sure its the right word to use). what do i really want in my life? research was never fun or exciting and u need so much brain power for it. yet, on the other hand, why are all researchers so obsessed with their work.

let me make an analogy. sports ppl train all their life, i'm sure it ain't fun either but why are they so many who still do it? i guess it's all for that moment of glory on the podium. maybe it's the same with the researchers, though i dunno whr they find their inspiration and motivation.

mixed feelings. i can't decide if i want research to be part of my life. perhaps it's time to rethink the choices, perhaps we shld just let things work out on their own.

ppl ask me, do i regret joining this? maybe because it never was fun. maybe not, because it showed me the truth of reality. afterall, it has always been my belief that it's better to regret doing than regret not doing.

saw in the darkness 12:41 PM

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