Friday, April 18, 2008
seating plan changed.
i feel so alienated, in a totally unfamiliar environment.
the old feeling is lost and can never be found. the people around me will no longer be the same. im trying so desperately, trying to search for some warmth in this new environment.
somehow, everyone, everything feels so cold even though we've been in the same class for 4 mths. i have been in the new place for barely 1 day and i feel so uncomfortable there. put aside the fact that i have a genius PRC beside me which stresses me out like dunno what. all the surrounding people, i just don't blend in with them. they're like fire, im like water and you should know that 水火不容. personality mismatch, i guess.
i hate the new place, and i hate the teacher, mr _alking Alot Nonstop. his reasoning is crap, totally flawed and he does not preach what he teach. #$#@%#%&^* screw you!
just when im struggling to cope,
u attack me with harsh and merciless words, totally belittling my efforts and hardwork
just when i'm trying my best,
u tell me its no use, totally shattering my confidence
just when i really wanted to do it,
u decided for me that i was joking
just when im starting to blend into the new environment,
u decided to take me away and put me into a totally new and alienated surrounding
just when i started to accept the teachers and lose some of the prejudice,
u decided to prove me wrong once again
just when the mid years are around the corner,
u made me completely lose faith in myself
your harsh and biting remarks, has left a bleeding cut in my heart.
saw in the darkness 10:54 PM
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