Wednesday, January 23, 2008
my yr 3 life has barely started but im already suffocating..
so tired so tired
tests coming up..
yet we have to go for useless cca activities
choose between cca and your progress report, the answer is abvious
although i hate to say this after 2 years and 23 days in the cca but..
cca sux and i hate it
np was not my choice in the first place.
it was not my choice
it is not my choice
and it NEVER will be my choice
never..
i hate to be associated with them, constantly referred to as part of them. i never wanted to be part of it, so dun force me. dun force your own personal beliefs onto others. i have my own personal beliefs and sadly, it clashes with yours. we belong to a different category, a different type of people. it was a mistake to begin with by putting us together. a big big mistake.
since we were setting goals during pdp lessons today, let me just state my real personal goals (for the year) here since i can't really put them down on the paper teacher gave us.
(in order of priority, not including those written in sch)
1)change cca
2)pon ITC
3)pon ATC
i know ATC is tougher than ITC and it shld come first but since ITC takes place b4 ATC i guess it take priority eh.
i know my attitude sux during cca, i know others hate this attitude of mine during cca. i know and i dun nd you to remind me. i have been constantly reminding myself, i have been trying to keep myself in check, i tried my best but afterall it was a mistake to begin with, i see no point in trying anymore. it's just a waste of time and energy. afterall if i manage to change cca in the end, no one will feel sad for me since my attitude sux during cca, there'll probably rejoice.
i hate my current cca and that's a fact that's never gonna. this is the one and only firm belief i have held on to since joing the cca, all the others hopes i used to have are already gone. how do u expect me to believe you once again.. promises promises. the promises you made are never kept but time and again you make promises and want me to believe you, how do you expect me to do that, just how..
haven't i trusted you enough?
saw in the darkness 9:22 PM
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