Tuesday, November 27, 2007
haiz.. hv been abit busy these few days.. trying to catch up on dramas and such
just when i thought i would not have to go online and watch green forest coz channel u is goin to show it and it so luckily happens to be ep 1... my tuition teacher had to tell me tuition starts this wk wth!!! this added to the reluctance i always had whenever i went for lessons.. it sux!
why can't i decide for myself whether or not i want to go for tuition lessons.. i told my mum i dun wanna go but she said "that's goin to cost u ur As".
i can't rly accept this.. there are only 2 reasons i can tink for ur reply
1)you don't trust me
2)you tink im lousy
do you know u juz shattered the little amt of trust we had left between us.. bit by bit u threw out trust away.. now.. even the final lil bit is gone..
i know u will say for my own gd and i know in ur eyes it rly is for my own gd..
but im rly 14 and turning 15.. i know wats best for myself.. afterall its my life.. besides its english...
im nt trying to say my english is perfect.. its juz that whenever i go there.. its juz doin practices and learning things that will nt come out in exams.. you also say that only way is to read more bks.. then why force me to go for lessons.. i dun understand.. wat are adults thinking..
i believe im very clear headed now.. im nt saying all these coz i wanna watch green forest.. im nt that retarded.. i can make my own decisions..
why can't u juz trust me for once.. juz once and let me prove it to u..
how i wish dreams and realities cld swap places..
saw in the darkness 11:21 PM
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