Saturday, October 27, 2007

DISAPPOINTMENT

i showed my result slips to my parents.. or rather they asked for my result slip.. i thought i did not do too badly.. i thought it was gd enough.. at least for me.. i thought i could at least get something for all the hardwok i put in.. yes.. i did get something and that is the pretty gd results but that was not wat i really wanted.. i wanted ur 认同.. why juz can't u say a few words other than gd.. ok.. nt bad.. why must u look at only the bad stuff on the result slips and go on and on for hrs juz on one bad stuff.. why nt the gd stuff. i feel so cheated.. juz lyk others i nd incentives to work well.. u can't juz expect me to produce excellent results without incentives (i guess the only person who can do that is the gal with gpa 4).. why do u nv seem to be satisfied by my results.. are they really that bad?!? i rly rly HAD hoped u would do something more than juz good (u say that everytime can.. more creative can?)
haiz.. i guess that's my life.. was the effort rly worthwhile.. maybe.. maybe not.. i had always believed i am supposed to work hard.. my beliefs are now shaken.. i juz nd some incentives frm u.. that wld make everything more worthwhile..

" So often Life
Is not filled
With Love and Laughter
As much as
With Loneliness and Disappointment

But there will be enough
Of those beautiful moments
With very special people
To make it all
Seem worthwhile "

once again.. i thought of 2B.. afterall you are the ppl who make my day..

saw in the darkness 11:17 PM

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